Wednesday, November 2, 2011

Thinking of you.

This past week my heart has been a little heavy. On Tuesday, November 1st my father celebrated his 89th Birthday, and I was a little saddened that I couldn't be there for him on his special day. Last weekend something happened at home where 9-1-1 had to be called. To make a long story short, he is now hospitalized and awaiting surgery. This weekend, all of us will be taking a trip to visit him and I plan on making him a wonderful birthday cake as the nurses/doctors made the ok to "celebrate" his birthday at the hospital. And I know having us around will really brighten up his day - he doesn't like hospitals at all!

Lately, I've been feeling really happy & sad at the same time. Happy that he was able to take part in so many milestones in my life, like walking me down the aisle and dancing with me on my wedding day, 6 1/2 years ago. He has also been such a wonderful grandfather to both of my boys and they are sooo blessed to know him and have him in their lives. I never got to know any of my grandfathers or even my paternal grandmother; so, having him around my boys means the world to me.


At the same time, I am a little saddened to think about the future and how many MORE memories I would like to have with him. Does this make me selfish? I hope not. Because even though he is with us right now, I can't fathom the thought of not having him in our lives anymore. The thought of it makes my heart feel broken. Anyway, I will stop at that. Don't forget to tell your loved ones how much they mean to you...


XO's,
Jessie

23 comments:

Alabaster Rose Designs said...

Oh sweet Jessie,
I have been praying for your sweet dad and his upcoming surgery. I know how hard it is to look back at all of the wonderful memories and hope for more. Your sadness is more than understandable, and you wanting more time and memories is not selfish!! I think everyone wants this with their loved ones, especially when they are growing older.
I will be thinking of you and your family, and definitely be praying for you all!!
Take care and have a safe trip.
Sincerely,
Melinda
P.S. ~ I love that photo of you and your dad at your wedding!!

Pamela Bates of Mercantile Muse said...

I'm so glad that you'll get to visit with Dad this weekend. So sorry that he's in the hospital. Here's hoping and praying that the doctors and nurses there make things better for him. I know he's going to love your cake! Hang in there. And, no, you're no selfish.

jeanetteann said...

The best part is you have wonderful memories that will take you right through your life and into your childrens future. Wishing your dad all the very best with his forthcoming surgery. xx

Alaina said...

I am so sorry to hear about your father. I hope everything goes well with his surgery. Yes, it is most important to enjoy the time you have together.

Denise Pacurar said...

I'm so glad you get to see him this weekend. I'm sorry to hear he got injured and needs surgery!! I'm praying for a successful surgery! Hold on to those memories and continue to cherish them! Your father seems like a very sweet and loving father!

xoxo Denise

http://allthingsnew-denise.blogspot.com/

Decorating with Cents said...

We're human and when we have known and loved someone all of our life just the thought of knowing they won't be with us forever is hard. While you're enjoying the birthday cake continue to have priceless memories during your hospital visit. Take care.

Blondie's Journal said...

I understand how you feel and I think you are doing the best you can do...creating more memories with your precious father. Keep doing just that and don't focus on the future and what has yet to come.

Sending many prayers your way...have fun with the birthday cake and celebration!

DREAMS ON 34th STREET ~ French Bread & Family said...

Jessie, you are so dear. You post touched my heart. I am praying for your dad and wishing him Birthday blessings!
~Lynne
[w/L]

Secret Garden Cottage said...

I'm so sorry to hear your dad is in the hospital, Jessie. You're still making special memories with him and your boys by going to be with him to celebrate his birthday in the hospital. Cherrish the precious time you have left with him... that's not being selfish at all.
You're in my thoughts and prayers.
xo,
Jo

A Cozy Cottage in the City said...

Thank you so much ladies for your kind & thoughtful words - they do really mean a lot! Surgery is scheduled for tomorrow. Thank you all for your prayers, it is greatly appreciated!


Hugs,
Jessie

Katherines Corner said...

prayers for a speedy recovery. I send Big Hugs ♥ your way

Anne Lorys - Fiona and Twig said...

Gosh, this post really resonates with me...I just lost my sweet mom two months ago, and I understand everything you've shared here.

You have my best wishes and prayers, it seems like you have a wonderful dad.

Hugs,
Anne

Karen said...

Dearest Jessie,
I will be adding my prayers to the others for your precious dad and your family too. I am glad that you have so many happy memories of your dad and I pray that you will be able to create many more together. God bless x

Dayle said...

Such a sweet reminder of what matters in life. I also thought of my dear old dad, as well. He is 84. I don't like thinking of the future, but he's had such a remarkable life, and that makes me happy.

I pray your father is doing better by now.

Ivy and Elephants said...

Best wishes to your father. I pray that he continues to share many more happy events with you and your children. And thanks for reminding me of what is really important in life.
Hugs,
Patti

Stacey@A Sort Of Fairytale said...

Oh, I am so sorry to hear this! Do not think you are selfish at all, it is completely understandable to feel how you do. I'm wishing you and your family peace and love!
XO

Sarah @ Modern Country Style said...

Hey Jessie,

No, not selfish one little bit. I'd say it makes you loving and thoughtful. I'm so sorry to hear that your father is in hospital...but happy that he's had such a life.

It is so bittersweet, isn't it? I've prayed for you - and you'll both be in my thoughts.

Sarahx

Red Rose Alley said...

Oh Jessie,
I know how you feel. I lost my dad when I was only 28, and not at all ready to lose someone that was so dear to me. He is in my heart every day. I will pray for your dad, and I am thinking about you today, and sending love your way.
~Sheri at Red Rose Alley

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A Cozy Cottage in the City said...

Hello dear friends!

Thank you so much for stopping by and offering your kind words - they have been greatly appreciated in more ways than one! :)

I just got back from being away - will be posting an update soon. Thanks again for thinking of me during this emotional time.

Hugs,
Jessie

Cindy said...

Hello Jessie,
No, it's not selfish at all. Enjoy and treasure each and every moment with your dear Dad. Not a day goes by that I don't miss mine and wish I'd had more time to make more memories! So, blessings to you and your Dad and the rest of your family. Hugs, Cindy

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Blooming Rose Musings said...

Jessie, you are not at all selfish. You have a beautiful spirit and kind heart and you are expressing it beautifully. I am so sorry you are having to go through this and I completely understand how you are feeling. I am glad you have had good news and he is in recovery now and I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. I have lost both of my parents so I know the kinds of things that are going through your mind. I know you feel so blessed to have so many wonderful memories of a wonderful and loving dad and you will be making more of those wonderful memories. Just take each day one step at a time.
The photo of you and your dad is wonderful.

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